So I am now at week 24. Wierd. I still remember the first day we found out we were pregnant. Although it seems like it was forever ago it has also gone by so very fast. Here... I will tell you the story.
It all started because I bawled one night for no apparant reason. I just kept sobbing and sniffling and Adam kept asking what was wrong. All I could say was "I don't know, I am just so sad... I don't know why." So he told me he loved me and hugged me tight, then we fell asleep. Oh but that's not where it ended.
The next night I started bawling all over again, and by this point I am just thinking there is something wrong with me, and Adam was thinking... "um she's crazy... I married a crazy women"
So the next day at work I was telling this whole saga to my friend Rita (who is 60 years old) and being so wise she says... "Um maybe you're pregnant?" and my immediate response is "No... Of course NOT..." (Since I had taken a pregnancy test about a week before cuz I FELT pregnant and it said no.) So I told her that we would find out in a few days if I was or not, because my time of the month was coming.
So after about a week I started to notice the little changes... moodiness, soreness, tiredness, going to the bathroom a lot. So I plopped myself down at the computer to learn a little about the signs of pregnancy.
I had them all. Yup I did.
So I called up husband and told him what I knew and then he said "That's funny cuz I was just on my way to Wal-Mart to buy a pregnancy test for you." It was fate!!
Needless to say I took it as soon as I got home. I was just a tiny bit nervous (cuz I really wanted it to say postive) so I walked around nervously and then checked on it.
To me it looked like it was just going to come up with one pink line (which meant no) so I walked out and tried to keep myself occupied. Then Adam went in to look and said with a happy sort of voice... "Uh oh! There are two lines"
I couldn't believe it I thought he was joking with me, but there really were two lines staring back at me... I was going to be a mother.
Adam and I hugged and kissed and were so excited for what we had just found out. Then like as if it were on cue... my phone rang and it was my sister Tiersa. She says "Ash... you gotta hear this... listen to Maya" Her little girl was in the bathtub splashing and playing around making all sorts of cute baby noises, and my heart just melted. I wanted to tell Tiersa SO BAD... but I also wanted this moment just for Adam and I.
What a wonderful thing to be able to give little Kevin a home and a family that will love and care for him so much. To be able to rear and teach this little spirit those things he will need to know to get back to his father in heaven. I am so very honored to become a mom and to give him the best possible situation for his goals in life. As I near the time when I get to see his little face I realize how blessed Adam and I truly are. What could be better!?!?!?
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