Trusting

I am sitting here in the dark just contemplated all that is going on in our lives. Boxes surround me and I would be lying if I said it didn't break my heart a little to see our home like this. Our first home has been so wonderful. This is where Kevin learned to crawl, walk, talk, and now it is time for him to say "bye bye". I have to admit that it hasn't felt totally like home since Adam left for Arizona in the middle of June, nevertheless part of my heart will always be here. We have made so many wonderful friends here in Cedar City and life will never be the same, which is the bittersweet end to this chapter in our lives. Life goes on... bigger and better things await us, but I can't seem to transition just yet, maybe because life is still in Limbo until our little girl gets here, or maybe because I have loved it here so much.
When all is said and done and the last box is put into the Uhaul, I guess all there is left to say is that Adam and I both know for sure that the Lord has blessed us every single step of the way. Great friends, a good home, and a future quite different than the one we imagined. I am happy despite the tears rolling down my face. I guess it is just hard to say Goodbye. We will roll with the punches from here on out and hope and pray that those reading this do so too. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." Prov. 3:5-6

Now the inevitable, Goodbye dear house, Cedar City and friends... you have forever changed us.

My Flower

Adam and I were talking tonight about Kevin, and I think it has both just kind of hit us lately how much we love this little guy. Not that we didn't know it before, but being apart from each other sure makes you notice what truly matters the most to you, and that really is Family.

I just have to say that I can't get enough of Kevin. My Mom was up the other day to help kick me into gear and she took Kevin on a walk. When they got back he came through the door with this little sunflower and tried to give it to me (of course I had color all over my hands so I didn't get to fully enjoy the precious moment), but I just felt so much joy over receiving my first flower from my child. And while this flower is all wilted now, I almost couldn't bring myself to throw it away, but I did in hopes that there will be many many more in the future.

Just Us

Mom and Kevin hangin' out together. How do you like my new blonde hair???