It's Positive

So I am now at week 24. Wierd. I still remember the first day we found out we were pregnant. Although it seems like it was forever ago it has also gone by so very fast. Here... I will tell you the story.
It all started because I bawled one night for no apparant reason. I just kept sobbing and sniffling and Adam kept asking what was wrong. All I could say was "I don't know, I am just so sad... I don't know why." So he told me he loved me and hugged me tight, then we fell asleep. Oh but that's not where it ended.
The next night I started bawling all over again, and by this point I am just thinking there is something wrong with me, and Adam was thinking... "um she's crazy... I married a crazy women"
So the next day at work I was telling this whole saga to my friend Rita (who is 60 years old) and being so wise she says... "Um maybe you're pregnant?" and my immediate response is "No... Of course NOT..." (Since I had taken a pregnancy test about a week before cuz I FELT pregnant and it said no.) So I told her that we would find out in a few days if I was or not, because my time of the month was coming.
So after about a week I started to notice the little changes... moodiness, soreness, tiredness, going to the bathroom a lot. So I plopped myself down at the computer to learn a little about the signs of pregnancy.
I had them all. Yup I did.
So I called up husband and told him what I knew and then he said "That's funny cuz I was just on my way to Wal-Mart to buy a pregnancy test for you." It was fate!!
Needless to say I took it as soon as I got home. I was just a tiny bit nervous (cuz I really wanted it to say postive) so I walked around nervously and then checked on it.
To me it looked like it was just going to come up with one pink line (which meant no) so I walked out and tried to keep myself occupied. Then Adam went in to look and said with a happy sort of voice... "Uh oh! There are two lines"
I couldn't believe it I thought he was joking with me, but there really were two lines staring back at me... I was going to be a mother.
Adam and I hugged and kissed and were so excited for what we had just found out. Then like as if it were on cue... my phone rang and it was my sister Tiersa. She says "Ash... you gotta hear this... listen to Maya" Her little girl was in the bathtub splashing and playing around making all sorts of cute baby noises, and my heart just melted. I wanted to tell Tiersa SO BAD... but I also wanted this moment just for Adam and I.
What a wonderful thing to be able to give little Kevin a home and a family that will love and care for him so much. To be able to rear and teach this little spirit those things he will need to know to get back to his father in heaven. I am so very honored to become a mom and to give him the best possible situation for his goals in life. As I near the time when I get to see his little face I realize how blessed Adam and I truly are. What could be better!?!?!?

My belly is growing everyday. This is Monday the 28th of May. I will try to post a picture every so often. I am already bigger than this. CRAZY!!

Little Soccer Player

What a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend it has been. I have really enjoyed myself and I hope everyone else has too.
Just a quick update since I last wrote. Chubbs is definetly alive and well inside my cozy tummy. Yesterday as I sat down to check my emails around 10 p.m. I felt definate movement and looked down at my belly and actually saw my tummy move. It was such wierd experience and yet I couldn't share it with Adam because he was in the shower. So when we finally crawled into bed I felt Kevin move and then he just stayed there so that my belly was SO hard right by my belly button. Adam put his hand there in hopes of feeling chubbs move. And guess what. HE DID. Adam felt it. It was wonderful. I mean I feel him a lot but last night Adam got to feel him too. What a wonderful experience to be able to share that with the father of my active little boy.
As excited as I was to feel him so strongly last night, it has definetly taken a different turn. He moved around so much last night that I woke up several times and was actually sick to my stomach this morning. I feel a bit as if I have a crazy little one in there. So I lay around pretty much all day waiting for the nautiaus feeling to go away, but here it is almost 10:00 and I am still quite sick. I think Kevin has found my bladder and my colon and they don't seem to want to work right. I now know the meaning of having to pee every second and not to be to graphic but I will say this... Fiber and Psylium Hulls will be my best friends over the next little while.
It is wierd what a body goes through during pregnancy, but despite the difficulties, I am so thankful for this wonderful miracle.

Write back if you have any advice or funny stories about your own experiences.
Love ASHLEY

Halfway through pregnancy...Is it too late to start a blog???

So here is my online journal about the journey of pregnancy. If you didn't know by now I'll just go ahead and tell you... IT'S a BOY. Healthy, Happy, and kicking. We had our ultrasound on wednesday and if you take a look at the pictures, he is most definetly a BOY. Little Kevin Russell Endsley. We are so very excited to know what he is, now he will no longer be "IT" but officially Chubbs. (that is Adam's nickname for him)

Speaking of Adam, I can't hardly wait to see him with Kevin. I know he will be so great as a father as I can already tell from how he acts now. He says hi to chubbs almost every time he sees me and he is already trying to get Kevin on his side, (he tells him to kick me when I get sassy), even though right now Kevin's kicks don't hurt me at all.

I was feeling so sad that I had not felt him kick yet by the time that we had our ultrasound, so the next morning I layed in bed and concentrated really hard on my ever growing belly. Then I felt it. People say it feels like little butterflies... I guess you could describe it that way but to me it felt more like a soft pulse or twitch. As if someone lightly brushed their finger across my belly but from inside. Although if I want to feel it again I have to concentrate or else I attribute it to gas bubbles or regular stomach craziness.

As far as my comfort goes, I am doing great. I need breaks every now and then while working hard doing hair, but I am energized and taking care of myself. I reorganized my closet tonight and put all of the things I don't fit into anymore in the back of the rack. Which leaves about 6 pair of pants left. Oh well that's a part of pregnancy I guess.

Well I am off to bed. BIG DAY tomorrow... the big 25 hits me. I know crazy I am turning 25 tomorrow.

luv ya'll
Ashley (chubbs and Adam too)