Halloween

I have so much to post about but my computer only works on SAFE MODE so my pictures don't always come up. It is very frustrating. So here are the pictures from trick or treating that didn't need to be turned (cuz my comp. won't turn them in safe mode)
Katie Bug was our Lady Bug for this year and she was so adorable I just wanted to eat her. This is her "smiling" for the camera. I am in love with how she poses now. It just started today.

Kevin picked out his own costume which was a Froggie. He LOVED it. I originally went just to the store just to see if we could find something for cheap for him cuz we kept trying to borrow a costume but he didn't love anything we looked at. Tiersa told me that JoAnns was having a sale and he found this costume and wouldn't put it down.

Journals are fun

I got home late last night because I went to play volleyball with a group of very talented girls and I sat down on the couch to read my scriptures sort of regretting that I was just now getting to my 15 minutes of reading. I looked up only to find my box of memories sitting in front of me (it was in the food storage closet for some reason and we took inventory yesterday). So I started flipping through pictures which I would TOTALLY post here but my computer won't let me. Then I picked up a notebook I used to use as my journal. WOW... is all I can really say.
It took me back to a sort of unpleasant place but also made me super grateful for where I am and who I have in my life now.
My journal was right before my mission during this 2 year long relationship that was SO DYSFUNCTIONAL. Anyway I found this entry where I wrote down what I really wanted in my future husband and it made me laugh and want to cry and I secretly wanted to just go wake Adam up and tell him how much I love him and how grateful I am for him.
I will share with you what I wrote
6/10/02
"I want the basic things in the man I marry. He has to be a return missionary... not just that but he must have served completely faithfully. Like my Dad. He has to have a good relationship with his parents and family. He has to be silly and know how to tease and how to be tease. Playful and not always thinking logically. Not too serious. But I want to be able to talk about everything with him. And not just that but I have to feel supported by him, and encouraged. He needs to make me feel comfortable about my self but at the same time make me want to become a better person. I want inspiration and love. He has to know where he is going in life, to know his job and love it. I have to see him in many different situations and see his good and bad qualities. Playing with his children is a big thing for me and he has to help his mother with the dishes. Basically I want a perfect man and although there are not perfect men out here I will find the one for me, and I will not just love him, I will be in love with him and won't be able to live with out him. I can see his imperfections but I still love him. I don't have to marry the first person I love.
My parents have to be excited for me but not make the decision for me. I have to feel like he is so wonderful... why is he with me? But at the same time I have to feel confidence in the relationship. He has to love Arizona... and the heat. He has to want my advice but also help teach me things."

If any of you know Adam you will also know that the above description of my "future" husband is EXACTLY what I got... except for one minor detail... HE HATES THE HEAT and does not really love Arizona.
Oh well I think he is perfect for me... I am so blessed and I love my Adam so very much.

Swollen

It has been staying dark longer here in AZ which has been really great for my beauty sleep. Kevin sleeps until at least 7:30 now but most days it is more like 8. I can't even tell you how wonderful it is to wake up before him and feel ready for the day instead of him coming in at 6:30 wanting to watch cartoons while I continue to shut out the world around me.
Of course then my day gets pushed back further and further and I don't end up showering until 11!!!
Anyway, this morning Kevin came out of his room around 8 and I was sitting right here checking my email. I looked up at him and his face was unusually sleepy-swollen, looking quite shocked to see me awake and didn't know if he was allowed to be out of bed yet. I greeted him with a cheery "Hi, bud" to reassure him and he just stared at me. Finally he pointed to his face and lips and said "take this off". I asked him what he wanted me to take off and he repeated his request "take this off". After a while I finally assumed he meant for me to magically erase his swollen face. Maybe he just isn't used to it being that swollen from sleep... but I couldn't stop laughing as he looked utterly confused as to why I couldn't help him with his predicament. Poor kid just had to let his sleepy face subside and move on with his morning. Not to worry though, it did go away and he had a great day full of smiles, giggles and teasings.

Journeling for a POINT

I am doing this challenge and one of the ways you can earn a point is by journeling every day. Blogging does occasionally count so here we go.

This challenge is really opening my eyes to the things I have been somewhat immune to. I have grown accustom to thinking of only me and my family. When I do so I sort of shut down. I eat a lot more, I tend to opt out of hard things i.e. exercise, schedules, cleanliness (staying organized IS HARD for me), even the thought of reading my scriptures tends to make me sort of sigh. I know this is horrible admitting this in public but I need to face it all.
I have 10 things everyday that I NEED to accomplish and knowing I have those things to do makes me plan and accomplish my day better. When I do these things my life just seems brighter which tends to make me get out of my rut.
I have to do a random act of service every day and I gotta tell you it has been kind of hard to find things to do that I would consider giving myself a point for. So it makes me look out for ways to serve, when I see an opportunity I usually take it but then later think, I bet could find another more meaningful one. I really kind of like it so far. It sure does get me out of myself and focusing on God's children.
I know this is random, but I just want to interject here and say how much I love my husband. He went back to work full time today and it was really hard for him. He is so tired and also used to being home half of the day. He works so hard for our family and I really want to show him how much he means to us.
Speaking of family, Katie today was so fun. She has been a little fussy lately cuz I think she might be teething, so it was a breath of fresh air to have her happy and lively again today. She is attempting to walk and will try to take just one or two steps then fall down and laugh. Today while we were sitting on the couch she came over and stuck her head in my hands and then I just sort of grabbed her little face and wiggled it a little bit. She laughed so hard over and over and over again. Finally Adam and I were talking and she came over, grabbed my hand and stuck her face in it. She did that probably 20 times, each time laughing a little more than the last. Then she would attempt to walk, fall down, crawl over to the pillow and bury her head in it with excitement. So cute.
Last night after I put Kevin to bed he got out and I sort of got mad at him. He was trying to tell me that he wanted a different toy but I don't usually cater to that sort of thing so I sent him back to bed. He whined a little but did get back in bed only to get out again a few minutes later. He got out of bed again and when I asked him what the heck he was doing out of bed he very calmly said... "I was looking for you" He really wanted his other toy (but he had already picked his allotted 2 for the night) and I told him it was all the way downstairs and I was not going to go get it. He cried a bit and finally I said you can have lightening McQueen if you want (it was in the hallway) and he got mad and said NO, I DON"T WANT HIM. So I said goodnight and let him cry for a little bit then asked him again if he wanted lightning. By this point he is willing to compromise and he said yes. I gave it to him and he said (still kind of crying but with the sweetest little voice) "Thank you, Mommy" That made me want to go get the other toy from downstairs for him. Don't worry, I was strong and just told him "Your Welcome and I love you".
My kids are Priceless.

Our Little Girl is ONE!!!

I can hardly believe that my sweet little baby is now a sweet little girl. Yesterday was her Birthday and I wanted to post something all day but my computer was NOT cooperating. So really quick I will just say how much we love having her in our lives. She always wakes up with a smile and brightens our day. Happy Birthday my sweet princess... you will NEVER know how much we love you!!!